Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde

Just like there are two sides to every story, there are also two side's to Moe. There is the blue-eyed, freckle faced little girl who loves to snuggle and then there is the green-eyed torrent who is a match for no-one. I won't lie and say life with Moe has been easy, but for the most part it has been fun. But this summer (and the future) scare me. I don't know if I can control her (nor do I think anyone can control her). And in the future, I see her wild-eyed, laughing as she rides off on the back of a Harley, but at the same time, I know that she have anything to hide- it's not her nature - she's very to the point.

But back to the here and now. This summer may be the summer to break me. I don't know if I can control her strong willed nature. I don't know if I have the energy or strength to match hers.

"Moe, stop touching the poison ivy. Yeah so, I want to see what it feels like"

"I love you momma, can we snuggle?"

"Moe, did you dump calamine lotion out the window? Why? because I see a trail of it down the roof. Yes."

"Can I make you a coffee Momma?"

"Moe, you need to stop writing on the walls. Where did I write something? It says Can I have a playdate with K? on the inside drawer in the bathroom. Oh, yeah. Well, can I? No, not until you stop writing on things"

"Momma, do you want to last one? It don't matter (meaning I don't mind) if I don't have one"
"Yeah so what, I don't care" "Momma, is it okay if I water the plants for you?"

She's always been a high maintenance child, enough balance of sweetness to counter act the wild child inside. And she definitely controls who sees what. There are those who only see the sweetness in her - who tell me how lucky I am to have such a sweet, funny helpful little girl. Who ask, does she ever stop smiling? Who I'm not afraid to let Jules visit with alone because "she is always so well-behaved". And then there are others who must leave after visiting wondering what goes on in our house, how can she be so out-of-control. Who ask "is she always like this?" Who probably need Tylenol and a stiff drink to recuperate after a visit with her.

I just hope that she let's the blue-eyed sweet child out a little this summer. Or you'll find me in a corner come September.....